But this isn't my first rodeo. However, this is an important baby - it's my first niece/nephew on my side of the family. Bug won't be an only grandchild anymore!
We received the good news last night. It made me happy but also very sad. As much as I can't contain my excitement about my siblings having kids of their own, it's also very much a reminder of how much we struggle to conceive. We feel so very blessed to have Bug, but the process of deciding to have kids from pitching my bc to holding our beautiful daughter in my arms took three and a half years. Three and a half long years. It still hurts to hear that it's an easy process for everyone else, even family.
This morning brought tears when I started to think about the weeks of doctor's appointments, ultrasounds and shots I'll have to go through before we can have another child. We have no more frozen embroyos and we'll have to do another full round of IVF for a much desired second and maybe third child. I know God's in charge, but regardless, it's a very emotionally and physically draining process. I just wish it could happen naturally for us. I still keep hoping for that miracle.
Little Baby "S", as sad as your aunt may seem in this post, I honestly can't wait to meet you and hold you in my arms. You are already loved. A LOT :)
